What Makes a Great kiss

Great Hollywood Kisses

 10.      Divergent

"I want to be more than just one thing."

9. Titanic

 This is just too classic not to like.

 8. While You Were Sleeping

This goes out to my favorite movie. If you havent
seen it yet you are missing out.

7. Pirates Of The Caribbean 3:At Worlds End

They are in mid battle, people are dying, bombs are going off and
they are making out. Beautiful.

6.One Tree Hill

 This show has some of the best kisses. I couldnt resist.

They just had a Cookie Dough fight, its all over their hair,
and on their clothes but nothing is sweeter than this kiss.

5. Disney Kisses 

We all dream of that "Happily Ever After Kiss"

5. Cinderella Story

This gave us all unrealistic expectations of High School
Football games.

4. The Lucky One

"
She is "The Lucky One" if she gets to kiss Zac Efron
and get this speech given to her.

3. Safe Haven

I probably push the rewind button 10 times when I
watch this.

2.New Girl

Any girl that says she doesnt want a kiss like this is a
liar.

1. Breakfast At Tiffany's

The first rain kiss that started it all.


 Dear Boys:

These Instructions are for YOU.

How To have a great kiss.

you want to know what makes a great kiss? If you were planning on the doorstep scene your doing it wrong.

Not that those aren't nice. 

but what made these Hollywood kisses so memorable?

They weren't expected.
 
But the greatest kisses are the unexpected ones. The ones in the pouring rain. The ones when you're covered in cookie dough, the ones that accidentally explored over the line of friendship. Its the kisses that happen in the middle of a fight.The best kisses are the ones that keep us on our toes. The ones you don't spend the entire date thinking about, popping in breath mints "just in case."

Great kisses are something we all want. I just hope mine are memorable.

My Real Image

What's my image?
You knew me as Macie Gillman.
as the quiet girl in most classes.
You might have known me though Makayla Waters.
(The Best Friend that always has been.)

Than I started to write blog posts.
You might have learned how I feel about being human.
How I feel about the word "Just Friends."
The things I wonder about.
What inspires me.

Now we have all been exposed.

Now its not just Pen names with unknown hearts.

Now we have people to associate the hearts with.

we all know a little deeper into each-others hearts.
I now know a little bit more about
how Sarah Matthews feels about losing her dad.
how Braden Harris feels about his Coach.
about How Trevor Elzey feels under a mask.
How Austin Garrett relates love to holding hands
How Makayla Waters wishes of being more than a farmers daughter.

Suddenly the images we originally created
The walls we put up
the pen names we hid behind

 are gone.

I'm not JUST the shy girl
That sits at the back of the room.

 Suddenly, You aren't just the class clown. The jock. The Hipster. The Molly Mormon

These blogs are like starting College.
They give us a chance to start over. 
To create the image of who we really are. 

So here's to new beginnings.
You now know my name.
You know pieces of my heart.
It's time I let you know more about my real image.

1. Im Macie L'aine Gillman, I prefer the last name of Staheli which is my moms maiden name. Macie L'aine Staheli.

2. I don't have a great relationship with my real father. But its getting better. Ive spent many days and nights wishing I had what a lot of you have, a dad to dance with at my wedding, a dad to tell me any boy would be lucky to date me. My mom got married last year, and I finally got a dad.

3. I kickbox 

4. I would rather put my headphones in and blast music as I walk from class to class than socialize with people in the halls. 

5. Ive liked the same guy since 6th grade. and trust me, it hurts like hell.

6.  I'm not good at hiding my emotions. I don't get why I should have to pretend to be something that I'm not. If I'm not happy, I'm not about to act happy.

7. I'm afraid of everything except commitment. Love doesn't scare me.

8. The list of children's movies that Ive embarrassingly cried in is getting ridiculous: Bolt, Scooby Doo, The Land Before Time, Brother Bear, Tarzan, Lion King ( Duh), Beauty in the Beast, Fox and the Hound, etc.

9. List of LP guys I think are hot: Seth Hanneman (Duh) , Peyton Gerber, Tyler Ewell, Jared Collins, Zach Frampton, Kash Tollis, etc. ( Yeah whatever we're graduating in a month)

Now you know deeper into my heart. You know my real image. 

I expect you to keep showing yours.

Full of secrets

Full of secrets

You thought these four walls held my secrets. darling, you underestimated me. I put white sheets over them, just in case you broke my walls. Good Luck trying to uncover them.

You made me fall in love.

Dear Untitled Love Poem -

I didn't find you. You found me. I wasn't looking for you. But you appeared anyway. You were stuffed in a shelf of books In his room. Your cover was beautiful and it read "Speak for yourself." I was a TA for him, and with nothing to do, I was intrigued by your cover, and what secrets you might hold.  You're the Love Poem I flipped to. I immediately fell in love with you. I fell in love with the way your words created images. I fell in love with the way you made me feel. After I read the last sentence...your last secret, I shut the book and slammed it on the table. Now you made me jealous. You made me jealous of how beautiful you are. Of the way you seductively made me want to write something as beautiful as you. You were the love poem that motivated me to write. Whether out of jealousy or love though, I don't know which.

We're all good Actors

I used to think actors in the movies were so amazing. They would have a scene where they had to show such emotion-- such sadness. I was amazed the actors could make it look so real; the way they cried, the way that they had to pretend they had just lost something or someone. I used to think this would be so hard to do, especially because they hadn't lost at all.

 I still think it would be hard to fake sadness and fake it well. But now I believe it's harder to act happy when you aren't. People do this everyday. Our world is filled with the best actors. People have gotten good at painting smiles on their faces and making other people believe they are happy; that their life is everything they want it to be. That's their script. And they play their roll well.

I think of my mom, who worked 12 hours in one day this week. I can only imagine how stressed she must of been, how tired she was.  But she came home with a smile on her face.  I wonder how real that smile was.

I think of the girl who walks in the door of her house, tear stains of smeared mascara on her sleeve. Her parents ask how her day was at school. She answers, "Great" as she hides her sleeves in her pockets. She doesn't want them to worry.

I think of the boy who struggles but doesn't want to talk to anyone about it because he thinks it makes him less of a man. He plays his sport, he jokes with his football buddies, he's gotten really good at fake laughing.

I think of the girl in love who sits across the table from him. She listens to him tell her about the girl he kissed last weekend. Her face is in a soft smile. She has excitement in her voice as she tells him, "I'm happy for you!".  Little does he know her heart is beating painfully.
 

 I wonder why we act.Why is it we are so afraid of anyone knowing that we didn't get the guy, or that we lost a friend,that we are tired, that are bones hurt or that frankly we just hurt? Why do we hide the things that make us human? doesn't being human mean feeling all emotions at times? So why are only some emotions socially acceptable?

I guess that's another part of being human. We usually only do what's socially acceptable: Smile, laugh, say everything is great. If we want to fit into the social norm that roll works. But we lose something valuable when we hide how we truly feel.We lose the ability to connect with people on a deeper level with a full range of human emotion. Speaking for myself I want to see your heart break, and share mine. I want to hear about it when your dreams die. Scream with you when your anger balls your fists. Cry with you when you cant take it anymore. And I need you there for mine.

Lets not ever stop wondering

Things I wonder:

1. I wonder what its like to make out, and what the heck you're supposed to do with your tongue.

2. What language do people think in who are born deaf?

3. I wonder why I think Mint Oreos taste healthier than regular Oreos.

4.  How long is Forever? (If you don't wonder that, you're not thinking hard enough.)

5. Why do I wait till I have no clean clothes before I do my laundry?

6.  I wonder if Jesus was married.

7.  I wonder why my father loved pornography more than he loved me.

8. Why do I hate the taste of water? And why does Diet Coke tastes so much better?

9.  I wonder if we can eat in heaven. I'd just like to know what Im signing up for.

10. I wonder what people really think about my writing. Not from a friends perspective, whose job is to compliment you, not from a teachers perspective whose job is to believe in you. I want to know from someone not bias.

11. Why do girls think its sexy to twerk? Its un-classy, and they look dumb when they do it.

12.  I wonder what its like to be so crazy in love, you can't imagine life without that person

13. I wonder about you. That's not new.

Some things we wonder, and never stop wondering. These things are magical, and full of mystery, and beauty. Sometimes when we wonder it motivates us to find the answer. I hope we get the answers we're looking for.

You, Me and the Rain.

You're my first love,
and believe me, I wish you weren't.
Not even the "ice in my vein" metaphors
describe how you make me feel.

I tried using the "heart on fire" one too
But that didn't even seem to fit
just exactly how you make me feel.
So maybe I try a new element

You make me feel like I'm in the rain.
I look at you and I smile.
All I want to is feel you on my skin.
Drench myself with your love till I cant fall anymore.

You make me feel I'm in the rain.
On a April afternoon
I'm at a picnic, And you've just ruined it.
You leave me cold and shivering, and heartbroken.

You make me feel like I'm in the rain.
I'm dancing in your laugh.
I wish you knew how to dance with me.
I guess this dance was only meant for one.

You make me feel like I'm in the rain
In a storm without an umbrella.
You hit me all at once, and it hurts.
You slide down my face in drops that look like tears.

You make me feel like I'm in the rain.
Wow you smell good.
I want to memorize your taste, and your rhythm.
Really I just want to know you.

You make me feel like I'm in the rain.
Stuck inside my room, watching you.
I'm waiting for a sign, for that rainbow.
I guess the rain doesn't even know when the clouds clear.

You're my first love, and believe me I wish you weren't.